the walk of shame

i embrace myself today
to this moment i reflect
have i lost my mind?
i asked myself
or maybe i have lost myself
this battle inside i'm fighting
all this feelings of shame
i keep it to myself
no where to go no where to hide
possibly the worst ever
i'm not sure of what i should do
no one knows, no one to talk to
i feel this burning shame deep within
something that i cant run away from
i hate myself i hate my life
i guess i understand the consequences
maybe this is my punishment
so quiet my hearts so lonely
but no tears can make this right
i want to stare into nothingness
and walk my pain away,
smoke a cigarette or two
as the breeze comforts me.
sounds like a great plan
who knows maybe i can find a little peace there.